“The Best Laid Plans…”
The last six months have definitely manifested “the best laid plans…often go awry”
At the surface-level, every step forward has been counter-balanced by a longer draw backwards. In my past experience, the long draw back is usually followed by intense expansion, this time, however, any ground gained has been short and not long-lasting.
Intervals of work have been book-ended by medical procedures, weather interventions, relationship turmoil, lethargy, and so much more. It has been so easy to focus on the external, surface-level, and physical body. This has resulted in periods of completely losing conscious connection with my energetic self and universal connection.
Similar to a fractal, the last six months have truly provided endless opportunities to go deeper and deeper into myself to become aware of and release/let go of beliefs, values, philosophies, storylines, narratives, memories, behaviours, patterns of thought and so much more. All of which I had thought I had already released in the past. The process is endless, just as we are endless.
The old ways of healing are no longer working, so they are released.
The old ways of communicating are no longer working, so they are released.
Anxiety is no longer working, so it is released.
The need for things is no longer energetically supported, so it is released.
The old ways of working are no longer working, so they are released.
Fears no longer motivate, so they are released.
Money is no longer flowing, so I am learning to live without it.
The list goes on…and…on, and then cycles back around at an even deeper level. I mean, who knew a single phrase I heard as a child would impact thoughts about myself and others, behaviours, choice of words, my heartrate, vision, cellular healing and more each time the vibration of it was activated, even more than 50 years and a whole stack of therapy later!
If I focus on the release, my mind likens the process to being stripped completely bare of all things except my physical body and my energetic core/soul/Being.
The most fascinating observation, however, is my increasing surrender to it all.
Awareness of my resistance, that in the past would hit me like a punch in the gut or a car crash while doing 100 mile an hour, is now showing up in much more subtle ways, and the path to release begins with acquiescence, reluctantly handing it up, and then suddenly realising at some moment later in linear time that the resistance has dissolved, along with the associated reactions of the emotional, cellular, and mental bodies.
Storylines, acquired beliefs and values, and constructed narratives, although more easily recognised in the moment, are still taking some time to release from the unconscious automated response system.
So, as we move toward the end of the constructed calendar year and the numerological energy it imparts, I sit here in peace and serenity, knowing regardless of my plans for the last six months going awry, I am right where I am meant to be.
Love to All,
Kel 🙏💜🌈
